Understanding One's Self

Photograph taken of Present Moment Herbs and Books on May 20th in Minneapolis.

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While driving home, I found myself drawn to this shop. Nestled between restaurants and apartments complexes, it seems to draw attention of those looking for guidance. The name itself is a reminder of my own practices of mindfulness, in which anxiety generally interrupts. I found a small novel in the clearance section entitled Numerology, written by a Mary Anderson. While I may not have any knowledge of numerology, I asked myself if it were a legitimate source of answer. Then I looked to myself, and asked the same in which led me to the counter with my dollar in hand, the exact amount the book cost.

I figured, my life is short and only getting shorter, why not question the pattern itself. Quoted from the intro of the book itself, "Numbers have valid meanings. Properly interpreted, they can provide a route for one's life journey." Wild right?

Apon further reading, I learned the idea of symbolism behind one's name and birthday and while I'm not claiming numerology to be a belief system of mine, or my practice, I did find similarities between how the book described myself and how I perceive myself as well. I learned that because I was born on the 30th, I was given a great gift of imagination and have strong ideals. Then it told me that social work and art are my specialties, and then I was reminded of what I had been searching for, even though I hadn't realized that was my goal by stopping at the store in the first place.

For those that don't know, I am in the beginning stages of building what I hope will be revolutionary to some and helpful to the rest. This year I went through the ride of life, faced many trials and surpassed them with love and admiration of my life itself. A year ago I was depressed, lost and unknowing of how to find myself. But through each experience I learned, more about myself and of life itself, the patterns that we all make that interconnect us. By doing this, I learned that I had a purpose that remained unknown but then as the fear of failure subsided I knew I needed to find success in something other than myself and what do I do best ? Help. But let's be clear, others first and then myself. If I were on an airplane on a downward spiral, I would surely be the first to die but in the hopes that other's survived because of me. It was this realization that led to the development of Leander Insight. I've recieved many questions asking what we do here, and simply speaking, counseling - but in the most in depth way I've known. I spent so long wrapped in my anxiety because anytime I asked for help, all that was given to me was a label and a prescription. While that may be beneficial to some, and there are some cases where that is the deciding favor between stability and one's self, I was a product of all that I had been told I was rather than who I was. My goal is to help others get through the way that I had, by compassion, empathy, counseling and simply care rather than a quick signature on a prescription pad. I hope to give insight to those who once faced the same trials as I, and today I was reminded of why I am here and why I am so proud of all the opportunities I have to help in the future.